Day 509 – the journey to date

Since coming out in April 2019 to a very select group, my life has changed drastically. All the fears, anxiety and panic that held me back seems like long forgotten memories now. Never could I have fully imagined how much love really exists in this world, even when it seems like humans are intent on destroying themselves.

Yes I am privileged. Privileged for living in a country where my right to gender expression is protected under the constitution. Privileged to live in a community where people only stare but keep to themselves. Privileged to have a family who loves me for me, and not what I look like. Privileged to work for an organization that accepted me … fully. Privileged to have the means to start on a journey where I could be myself. There are many other privileges I have come to realize I have, but I have limited space to type, and it’s not the point of this post.

I started posting purely to share my journey. More for me, than for others. Something I can look back at and see the change. And although I haven’t started any medical journeys, I can see the changes in self love, confidence, and how my style has presented itself. These are things I needed to have in place for myself before starting any medical journey. After years of not fitting I had to be sure this was my authentic self. I am sure!

And now a new journey as about to start.

This week I contacted my doctor, 509 days after coming out, and told her I am ready to start hormones. And today I will have my first batch of blood tests, hopefully leading up to getting my script and my HRT. Oh and a visit to my psych to get my letters.

I’m both excited and anxious about starting this new journey. But I’m ready. This is my path.